Just want to say a big Alhamdollah to my Allah. How He brought me to it, and led me through it. Kept me focused on the positive. He Brought the best solutions to each of my problems. The Chemos, all done, and now surgery which was the lumpectomy. It was the next step to overcome. It went quite smoothly.
One needs to keep one’s perspective clear at every step. Accept that with each one, there are bound to be some tough times also. Have some ‘go to’ things to think of, while going through the rough patches. For instance in my case, Ayat-e-Kareema is my ‘go to’ one. Which one is yours?
Surgery went smooth (since I wasn’t in my senses then!) – Naturally it was smooth. The tough part were the ‘procedures’ I had to undergo before the surgery. I suppose the doctor needed further pin pointing of the spot to be operated on, and to verify if there was malignancy in lymph nodes now or not. So, only affected ones would be removed.
Naturally, they took my Covid19, CBC and other tests a day earlier.
Of course I had given my own sadqa for the days of surgery. Also, had completed my donations’ file till mid December, so that even if I didn’t feel good after surgery, the food drive would continue. At the same time, I had given the check for the prosthesis for the right hand for our latest case. Such activities give one a great boost and a feeling of satisfaction.
Along with this is the aspect of reading the appropriate verses from Quran or which ever Holy book or meditation you find work for you. Here is the verse that Mufti Salahuddin had shared with me. This one was read after Isha prayers, for41 days. (Read durood-e-Ibrahimi before and after also.) Then to do the dumm over one’s body. However, I felt so good after reading it, that I continued with it, later on also.
Admitted for lumpectomy – the surgery:
On the 28th of November, I went to hospital with Waliya. Paid up all the bills and Oouch…the bills – yes, I was paying (for a change!). Being in the forces, I am entitled to free health care. However, I’m here voluntarily. So, no complaints. I’m very happy with the treatment.
After all, this is why you earn, save and work. To be able to pay up for health and other issues, vital for life. So, I told myself to see how blessed I am, and move that stupid thought aside. (I wanted all this lovely treatment, for free? So, stop cribbing or thinking negatively. Most of us want the best of everything – for free – are you nuts???)
While Waliya went to do the paper work and make the payments on my behalf. I had my room all done up nicely: As you know, I always take my own sheets, and pink ones for the appropriate occasion! 😉
The blanket was gifted by Afaaf, who is daughter of my friend Mahjabeen and also friend of Nataliya, my daughter who lives in Seattle. Small world. Loved it. So, it went with me on every chemo, and now for the surgery.
Its important to keep things which give you strength and feel so goooooood!
It was Saira, another friend of Nataliya who sent me those amazing wigs and beautiful scarves. I’m wearing one of those there too.
By now, there were no apprehensions. I knew that my cousin’s daughter Bushra was to assist the anesthetist at my surgery, Dr. Shawkat, who is one of the best in this field with forty years of experience. So, the surgeon was Dr. Hadi, one of the top surgeons in the field. So, now it was all in Allah’s Hands. I was at peace. Said my prayers, and felt great specially when Faizan (my youngest SIL) joined Waliya who was to stay with me.
I was not to eat anything after 12.00 am. So, then Faizan left, and we went to sleep, Waliya and I.
Procedures before surgery:
Next morning, we went for the two tests or procedures:
I had already been through the rather uncomfortable but important process through the mammogram and…..
The main point was that they needed to have accurate knowledge of condition and exact location of the cancerous lump and lymph nodes. Also they checked if there weren’t any more cells elsewhere. Alhamdolillah, I was shown the results where they couldn’t find any.
Then why go through the surgery? (‘Because the doc, say so!’)
You have to. They know it was there, so now they need to make sure that no microscopic parts of them are left. On with the surgery.
By this time it was around 12.30 and we went to the surgery department.
Day after surgery:
So, finally I went home feeling relieved at being over this phase too. I would need to be careful too. But what the heck, a big feeling of gratitude overwhelmed me. My Waliya and I went home feeling so wonderful. 🙂
Yes, we felt so blessed. 🙂